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I race for me

I race for me. Not to inspire. Not to impress.

Mother’s day is coming up.

Sugary stories about sacrifice and devotion. ¬†That’s not me. I don’t melt in the rain.

I will not sacrifice myself chasing the idea of “perfect mom.”

I will not cover my desire to race under the guise of inspiring my daughter.

I will not feel guilty about taking time to train.

I will not regret the hour at the gym while my daughter is in daycare.

I will not apologize for asking Scott to give up an entire day to support my racing.

I will not be contrite about taking time for me.

I will be a whole person. Not just a mom. Not just an employee. Not just a weekend warrior.

I will race.

I will not win, and I may barely finish sometimes, but I will race.

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Downieville

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Cyclocross in San Luis Obispo

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Santa Rosa Cup Cyclocross

And sometimes I maybe so beat down that I think maybe next year will be Scott’s turn to race instead! ¬†:)

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SoNoMas. The long course. With the pro women. Cooked.

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hiatus over

The things you do while waiting for cross season to return; mixed surface ride in Marin County – La Ruta Loca – Lite

First climb of the day, first poppies of the day. Coastal Trail

Sitting amongst the same poppies

Two summits later.. Coastal fire road, prepared for an exhilarating descent, . . . → Read More: hiatus over

Why I race (even when I don’t feel like I’m good enough to race)

I went to watch a stage of the Tour of California a few weeks ago. Well, as much as you can watch while taking care of a 2 year old. I’ve never watched a big pro road race in person before and as we were wandering around the lifestyle festival I was struck by . . . → Read More: Why I race (even when I don’t feel like I’m good enough to race)